I haven't blogged in over a month. Although I have to admit that I did do a little writing. I wrote poems for my class and poems in my head. One rainy weekend, I obsessively wrote haikus for no apparent reason. While driving. At one point I had to pull into a parking lot to write down my 17 syllable thoughts on the rain. Weird, but true. So, after admitting to a friend that I started a blog I thought it might be a good idea to get back to blogging. First, I read my (few/limited) posts. I realized that they are very personal. They reveal more about me than most people, even close friends know. I also realized that they are a bit depressing. I guess this winter was more challenging than I realized at the time. Thank God it is Spring, well, at least by the calendar it is even if the weather is not cooperating.
I have decided to take up blogging again. I find writing to be cathartic. However, I think I need to be more positive. I am generally a positive person. Except when I'm not. But after a long winter, I think I need to count my blessings and focus on the positive.
So here goes, in no particular order....
Blessing #1: Carl. Hands down, the kindest, nicest, most amazing man I have ever known. He is generous, funny, smart and all around wonderful. He is also stubborn, Italian (Sicilian) to a fault, and has more projects going than I could begin to keep track of. He has brought me more happiness than I thought I could experience. He has encouraged me and supported me through good and not-so-good times. He constantly refers to "us" and tells me "we make a good team." He makes me smile.
Blessing #2: My sister. My sister is my best friend. She knows me like no other person ever has or ever will. She is funny and smart. She is an amazing mom. My kids adore her. I am so blessed to have her here in town, just around the corner. Even if she wasn't my sister, she'd still be my best friend.
Blessing #3: My friends. There is nothing like girlfriends. They are an amazing collection of women. Many are fellow teachers but some are not. We get each other. We help each other. We hold each other up. I, personally, will never forget how they held me up when I needed it. I credit them for getting me through the toughest times of my adult life.
Blessing #4: My kids. Even though these tween and teen years are proving to be challenging, I am blessed with 2 healthy, smart kids. They are slowly maturing and growing before my eyes and I cannot imagine my life without them.
Blessing #5: My job/career/chosen profession/calling in life. Teaching has brought me many joys and frustrations. But most of all, it has brought me the ability to be me and to get paid for it! It has given me the ability to support my children, be available to my kids, and to be creative. I can't imagine not having been a teacher.
Blessing #6: My faith. It may not be perfect, but it is mine. I find that it gives me peace. It helped (and helps) to lay my worries at God's feet once a week. Sometimes, the power of prayer scares me. Cause it works! I remember my son asking me one day if God really answers your prayers. I told him yes but not always in the time frame you want or the way that you want Him to. I know this because it has happened to me. It has given me pause. I don't necessarily always agree with the doctorines of my chosen religion, but I do believe in the power of a higher being, the serenity that faith can give, and the need to give my children a basis in faith.
So, how's that for positive? I hope it is more uplifting than my last post. I guess I must have been having a bad day. Amazing what a little sunshine, some green grass, longer daylight hours and a little perspective can do for a girl. :)
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